What A Wonderful Caricature Of Intimacy

...interesting. im feeling the need for another piercing--tongue? nose? i dont know.
i have some extra bucks this week, my resourceful self found some way into money on monday.

and thats all im gonna say about that.

so many secrets its driving me crazy. i wonder just how many people lie to eachother on a daily basis and how easily it goes undetected.

so i talked to steve yesterday while in school... i guess my brother called him and left him a message to tell him he was ok with me and steve talking and what not. steve seemed pleased with this, as am i. of course. he said that he likes talking to me and he wants to keep talking to me and hanging out and what not. and that he doesnt want to hurt me... he has to much respect for my family anyways. honeslty i have absolutely no idea what direction he wants this to go. i figure that right now it doesnt really matter as long as we keep talking and doing what weve been doing, and just let it go how it wants to go. it'll all turn out ok, good. great i hope.

michael told my mom that we would be good for eachother... i never knew he thought that, or would ever get to the point where he would think that.

on another note, im longing for a bit of pick me up before i have to work. i have already made my physical and mental self feel shitty enough this week (besides steve, he makes me happy) ...i need something... or atleast really want something... maybe i can find some today before work... i hope... that would be amazing.

if me and steve ever do end up getting together (which would be amazingly fantastic) than i wouldnt do that stuff anymore, i would stop all of it. because i dont need artificial happiness... its not that i was ever really unhappy, its just that there has always been that missing part... and when i get to talk to steve, he seems to fill that more than enough.